Dear Weston,
Happy one week birthday! I never dreamed I would be saying this to you in the July heat. I had imagined you coming around Halloween and immediately dressing you in cozy fall clothes. Your daddy and I had figured we would start decorating your room right about now, and I would just be starting to wear maternity clothes.
On April 18, 2012, my pregnancy with you changed in a moment. So many people, including me, wanted you to stay inside a lot longer. We prayed for that every day. As time went on, it became clear that my year was going to be very different from what I had imagined and planned.
My life changed forever when your big sister was born almost three years ago and made me a mom. From the moment I found out you were coming, I knew that I would love you more than I ever thought I could love a little boy. But my experience of this last month or so, and then your dramatic birth on July 7, 2012 forever changed my life again.
I am so glad you are here this July. My body could not sustain you, so God did all the work. All I could do was trust that He would protect you. He did, and He is still doing so.
It is so hard having you in the hospital and not being able to hold you. But I am holding you in my heart every minute, and God has you in His hands.
Who would have thought that someone so tiny could change me so much and touch the hearts of so many people? This one week with you in the world has been earth-shaking, so I know that God has big things in store for you. I am so thankful that He chose me to be your mom.
I love you,
Mommy
Oh Shauna this is so touching. God has already used this situation as an example of faith in your family and that is worth a lot in itself.
ReplyDeleteSweet boy,
ReplyDeleteYou have changed us already, too, and we too hold you in our hearts each and every day. You are my sweetest nephew. I have dreamed about you twice since meeting you; you are deep in my heart already. Hold on, little one. And may God hold you ever so tenderly as well.
Yours,
Natalie